The screaming pierced my ears like it did when I was a child. Chills ran down my spine. ‘Nothing has changed’, I thought to myself. You’re still the same man that you were when I moved out 9 years ago. I ran to my room, closed my door and collapsed on my bed and cried. … Continue reading The Raw Truth – March 2020
Tag: self-worth
Allow Me to Reintroduce Myself
"Just be yourselfPeople don't have to like youand you don't have to careyou can't change how people feel about youso don't even tryjust live your lifeand be happy" Hey ya'll! It's been a minute since I've started this blog and so much has happened since the day I sat in front of my computer to … Continue reading Allow Me to Reintroduce Myself
Really Wish You Knew
Sometimes I lie awake at night wondering if I should have just kept pretending to be happy. If I should have just kept pretending that everything was okay. What I lost by trying to save myself, I often wonder if my decision to finally leave was worth it. It kills me being so far away … Continue reading Really Wish You Knew
Anxiety is…
Having anxiety and depression is like being scared and tired at the same time. It’s the fear of failure, but no urge to be productive. It’s wanting friends, but not wanting to socialize. It’s wanting to be alone, but not wanting to be lonely. It’s caring about everything, then caring about nothing. It’s feeling everything … Continue reading Anxiety is…
Focusing on the Now.
I've been to three mental hospitals in my life. Two when I was a teenager and one as an adult. Each one was different than the others; but the reasonings behind why I was there were all kind of similar. I was beginning my teen years when my struggle with an unstable mental health started. … Continue reading Focusing on the Now.
Mental Illness Doesn’t Take a Holiday Vacation
I read something on Twitter earlier today that said, "Mental illness doesn't take a holiday break." And this could not be more true. Holidays always seem to be stressful. Between entertaining family and friends, cooking big holiday meals, shopping for those gifts that will be used for a few months then tossed to the side … Continue reading Mental Illness Doesn’t Take a Holiday Vacation
Defined by My Reflection
And I said to my body, softly, "I want to be your friend." It took a long breath and replied, "I have been waiting my whole life for this." -Nayyirah Waheed For most of my adolescent and adult life I have looked at myself and only saw the worst things about me. My stomach is too … Continue reading Defined by My Reflection