"And you've got no idea I'm drowningMind is racing, heart is poundingIs today the day I walk away?Maybe I can hurt forever if it keeps you happy'Cause there are days I think we'll be alrightBut I can't keep pouring from a cup so emptyThen turn my back and try to sleep at night..." I can't … Continue reading It Was Supposed to Be You
The Raw Truth – March 2020
The screaming pierced my ears like it did when I was a child. Chills ran down my spine. ‘Nothing has changed’, I thought to myself. You’re still the same man that you were when I moved out 9 years ago. I ran to my room, closed my door and collapsed on my bed and cried. … Continue reading The Raw Truth – March 2020
This is what it’s like..
I am at such a loss for words. How did a couple weeks of talking about everything, letting each other in, sharing some of the hard stuff, planning our second date before planning our first. Then going on our first date which was amazing in every way. You picked me up, came to the door, … Continue reading This is what it’s like..
Allow Me to Reintroduce Myself
"Just be yourselfPeople don't have to like youand you don't have to careyou can't change how people feel about youso don't even tryjust live your lifeand be happy" Hey ya'll! It's been a minute since I've started this blog and so much has happened since the day I sat in front of my computer to … Continue reading Allow Me to Reintroduce Myself
Lovin’ You Was Worth It
"I know it wasn't perfectBut lovin' you was worth itThere's still sweetness in the memoriesEven after all the hurting" He walked into my life at the most unexpected time. I was so busy trying to numb myself from all of the hurt and sadness I felt, I never expected him. I wasn't even looking for … Continue reading Lovin’ You Was Worth It
Scattered Thoughts (Oldie but a Goodie)
"Just write it all out. Just put everything that is in your head into words that make sense and then put it all on to paper." "It'll help you but it will help so many others too." I used to wonder a lot why it actually mattered if my thoughts made sense on paper. They … Continue reading Scattered Thoughts (Oldie but a Goodie)
Really Wish You Knew
Sometimes I lie awake at night wondering if I should have just kept pretending to be happy. If I should have just kept pretending that everything was okay. What I lost by trying to save myself, I often wonder if my decision to finally leave was worth it. It kills me being so far away … Continue reading Really Wish You Knew
The Good of Goodbye
“If you’re braveenough to saygoodbye, life willreward you with anew hello.” That’s it world. My divorce finalized in November. It’s been a long journey since then and its only May. I’ve learned that happiness doesn’t depend on who is in your life but rather being happy with where you are in your journey; and that … Continue reading The Good of Goodbye
Unbearable Silence
Lack of communication ruins everything because instead of knowing how the other person feels, we just assume. So I’ve been told recently that I’m a horrible communicator. I keep things bottled in. I don’t share my feelings and can’t hold a conversation well. It was hard to hear this, to be completely honest... but it’s … Continue reading Unbearable Silence
The Ending of Forever
I’m learning to love the sound of my feet walking away from things not meant for me. Not many people know what’s been going on in my life lately. But I feel like I owe it to my readers because it’s been a big reason for my absence lately. So here it goes... I’m getting … Continue reading The Ending of Forever
Beautifully Chaotic 