"And you've got no idea I'm drowningMind is racing, heart is poundingIs today the day I walk away?Maybe I can hurt forever if it keeps you happy'Cause there are days I think we'll be alrightBut I can't keep pouring from a cup so emptyThen turn my back and try to sleep at night..." I can't … Continue reading It Was Supposed to Be You
Tag: mental health
The Raw Truth – March 2020
The screaming pierced my ears like it did when I was a child. Chills ran down my spine. ‘Nothing has changed’, I thought to myself. You’re still the same man that you were when I moved out 9 years ago. I ran to my room, closed my door and collapsed on my bed and cried. … Continue reading The Raw Truth – March 2020
This is what it’s like..
I am at such a loss for words. How did a couple weeks of talking about everything, letting each other in, sharing some of the hard stuff, planning our second date before planning our first. Then going on our first date which was amazing in every way. You picked me up, came to the door, … Continue reading This is what it’s like..
Allow Me to Reintroduce Myself
"Just be yourselfPeople don't have to like youand you don't have to careyou can't change how people feel about youso don't even tryjust live your lifeand be happy" Hey ya'll! It's been a minute since I've started this blog and so much has happened since the day I sat in front of my computer to … Continue reading Allow Me to Reintroduce Myself
Scattered Thoughts (Oldie but a Goodie)
"Just write it all out. Just put everything that is in your head into words that make sense and then put it all on to paper." "It'll help you but it will help so many others too." I used to wonder a lot why it actually mattered if my thoughts made sense on paper. They … Continue reading Scattered Thoughts (Oldie but a Goodie)
Really Wish You Knew
Sometimes I lie awake at night wondering if I should have just kept pretending to be happy. If I should have just kept pretending that everything was okay. What I lost by trying to save myself, I often wonder if my decision to finally leave was worth it. It kills me being so far away … Continue reading Really Wish You Knew
Unbearable Silence
Lack of communication ruins everything because instead of knowing how the other person feels, we just assume. So I’ve been told recently that I’m a horrible communicator. I keep things bottled in. I don’t share my feelings and can’t hold a conversation well. It was hard to hear this, to be completely honest... but it’s … Continue reading Unbearable Silence
Let’s Get Centered
High stress, anxiety, or even depression can be really hard to deal with. What helps me is using coping skills and positive affirmations. So below I'm going to list some coping skills and positive affirmations that work best for me, as well as include a few extras that may work for YOU. Coping Skills Use … Continue reading Let’s Get Centered
Anxiety is…
Having anxiety and depression is like being scared and tired at the same time. It’s the fear of failure, but no urge to be productive. It’s wanting friends, but not wanting to socialize. It’s wanting to be alone, but not wanting to be lonely. It’s caring about everything, then caring about nothing. It’s feeling everything … Continue reading Anxiety is…
Focusing on the Now.
I've been to three mental hospitals in my life. Two when I was a teenager and one as an adult. Each one was different than the others; but the reasonings behind why I was there were all kind of similar. I was beginning my teen years when my struggle with an unstable mental health started. … Continue reading Focusing on the Now.
Beautifully Chaotic 