The Raw Truth – March 2020

The screaming pierced my ears like it did when I was a child. Chills ran down my spine. ‘Nothing has changed’, I thought to myself. You’re still the same man that you were when I moved out 9 years ago. I ran to my room, closed my door and collapsed on my bed and cried. … Continue reading The Raw Truth – March 2020 →

Allow Me to Reintroduce Myself

"Just be yourselfPeople don't have to like youand you don't have to careyou can't change how people feel about youso don't even tryjust live your lifeand be happy" Hey ya'll! It's been a minute since I've started this blog and so much has happened since the day I sat in front of my computer to … Continue reading Allow Me to Reintroduce Myself →

Scattered Thoughts (Oldie but a Goodie)

"Just write it all out. Just put everything that is in your head into words that make sense and then put it all on to paper." "It'll help you but it will help so many others too." I used to wonder a lot why it actually mattered if my thoughts made sense on paper. They … Continue reading Scattered Thoughts (Oldie but a Goodie) →

Really Wish You Knew

Sometimes I lie awake at night wondering if I should have just kept pretending to be happy. If I should have just kept pretending that everything was okay. What I lost by trying to save myself, I often wonder if my decision to finally leave was worth it. It kills me being so far away … Continue reading Really Wish You Knew →

Rivalry No More

I have always said I would never be caught sporting anything U of M (University of Michigan). I’d never cheer them on to win a game, and I certainly wouldn’t be caught at The Big House. After all, I am a Michigan State fan. But let me be honest here. I have no legitimate reason … Continue reading Rivalry No More →

Anxiety is…

Having anxiety and depression is like being scared and tired at the same time. It’s the fear of failure, but no urge to be productive. It’s wanting friends, but not wanting to socialize. It’s wanting to be alone, but not wanting to be lonely. It’s caring about everything, then caring about nothing. It’s feeling everything … Continue reading Anxiety is… →

Focusing on the Now.

I've been to three mental hospitals in my life. Two when I was a teenager and one as an adult. Each one was different than the others; but the reasonings behind why I was there were all kind of similar. I was beginning my teen years when my struggle with an unstable mental health started. … Continue reading Focusing on the Now. →

A Christmas not so Merry

I knew that Christmas this year was going to be emotional. I had already anticipated shedding a few silent tears while I did my best to enjoy the moments with my family. What I hadn't anticipated was what happened on Christmas Eve. Like normal for my little family of five, we headed to my in-laws … Continue reading A Christmas not so Merry →

A Birthday to Remember

Most people look forward to their birthday; it's a day that is devoted to you. Sure, the getting older part kind of sucks for some. But celebrating with friends and family, the day you were brought into this world, is usually pretty fun. Tuesday I turned twenty-seven. Which means I should have been all kinds … Continue reading A Birthday to Remember →

A Letter to Heaven

“If you want to change your direction, If your time of life is at hand, Well, don't be the rule, be the exception A good way to start is to stand. Put one foot in front of the other And soon you'll be walking 'cross the floor. You put one foot in front of the … Continue reading A Letter to Heaven →