My Suicide Story

Being suicidal doesn’t necessarily mean you’re holding a gun to your head. Sometimes, it means smoking a cigarette in the hopes that you’ll get cancer. Or jaywalking across the street without looking, because you don’t care if you get hit by a car. Sometimes it means having sex with a stranger, hoping you’ll get an … Continue reading My Suicide Story →

Blessings Upon Blessings – My First Featured Story

In the beginning of December I was contacted by a man (John Thomas) who said he really enjoyed reading my blog. He told me that he has a website devoted to inspiring marriages and then he asked if he could feature ME on his website! So after exchanging a few more emails so I really … Continue reading Blessings Upon Blessings – My First Featured Story →

New Year, New Me? Not a Chance!

With a new year starting, many people believe it's the perfect time to finally start making those changes that they wanted to make all of last year, but never did. In other words, they are making their new year resolutions. Personally, I've never believed in making one. If I want to change something about myself, … Continue reading New Year, New Me? Not a Chance! →

A Christmas not so Merry

I knew that Christmas this year was going to be emotional. I had already anticipated shedding a few silent tears while I did my best to enjoy the moments with my family. What I hadn't anticipated was what happened on Christmas Eve. Like normal for my little family of five, we headed to my in-laws … Continue reading A Christmas not so Merry →

Mental Illness Doesn’t Take a Holiday Vacation

I read something on Twitter earlier today that said, "Mental illness doesn't take a holiday break." And this could not be more true. Holidays always seem to be stressful. Between entertaining family and friends, cooking big holiday meals, shopping for those gifts that will be used for a few months then tossed to the side … Continue reading Mental Illness Doesn’t Take a Holiday Vacation →

What is Christmas?

Yesterday I was sitting on the couch with Payton and we were talking about how many days there is left until Christmas. She loves counting down the days until Santa makes his arrival. Payton was telling me about all the gifts she really hopes Santa is going to bring her since she has been extra … Continue reading What is Christmas? →

Defined by My Reflection

And I said to my body, softly, "I want to be your friend." It took a long breath and replied, "I have been waiting my whole life for this." -Nayyirah Waheed For most of my adolescent and adult life I have looked at myself and only saw the worst things about me. My stomach is too … Continue reading Defined by My Reflection →

A Birthday to Remember

Most people look forward to their birthday; it's a day that is devoted to you. Sure, the getting older part kind of sucks for some. But celebrating with friends and family, the day you were brought into this world, is usually pretty fun. Tuesday I turned twenty-seven. Which means I should have been all kinds … Continue reading A Birthday to Remember →

Three Times the Love

"Rolled out of bed, almost broke my neck. Well I just laughed, 'cause I stepped on Barbie's head. It ain't the first time, and it's gonna happen again. But I'm okay with the world I live in... Man, I love the color pink." Glitter, bows, tutus, baby dolls and more. That is what I see … Continue reading Three Times the Love →

A Letter to Heaven

“If you want to change your direction, If your time of life is at hand, Well, don't be the rule, be the exception A good way to start is to stand. Put one foot in front of the other And soon you'll be walking 'cross the floor. You put one foot in front of the … Continue reading A Letter to Heaven →