The Raw Truth – March 2020

The screaming pierced my ears like it did when I was a child. Chills ran down my spine. ‘Nothing has changed’, I thought to myself. You’re still the same man that you were when I moved out 9 years ago. I ran to my room, closed my door and collapsed on my bed and cried. … Continue reading The Raw Truth – March 2020 →

Scattered Thoughts (Oldie but a Goodie)

"Just write it all out. Just put everything that is in your head into words that make sense and then put it all on to paper." "It'll help you but it will help so many others too." I used to wonder a lot why it actually mattered if my thoughts made sense on paper. They … Continue reading Scattered Thoughts (Oldie but a Goodie) →

Really Wish You Knew

Sometimes I lie awake at night wondering if I should have just kept pretending to be happy. If I should have just kept pretending that everything was okay. What I lost by trying to save myself, I often wonder if my decision to finally leave was worth it. It kills me being so far away … Continue reading Really Wish You Knew →

The Good of Goodbye

“If you’re braveenough to saygoodbye, life willreward you with anew hello.” That’s it world. My divorce finalized in November. It’s been a long journey since then and its only May. I’ve learned that happiness doesn’t depend on who is in your life but rather being happy with where you are in your journey; and that … Continue reading The Good of Goodbye →

Unbearable Silence

Lack of communication ruins everything because instead of knowing how the other person feels, we just assume. So I’ve been told recently that I’m a horrible communicator. I keep things bottled in. I don’t share my feelings and can’t hold a conversation well. It was hard to hear this, to be completely honest... but it’s … Continue reading Unbearable Silence →

The Ending of Forever

I’m learning to love the sound of my feet walking away from things not meant for me. Not many people know what’s been going on in my life lately. But I feel like I owe it to my readers because it’s been a big reason for my absence lately. So here it goes... I’m getting … Continue reading The Ending of Forever →

Rivalry No More

I have always said I would never be caught sporting anything U of M (University of Michigan). I’d never cheer them on to win a game, and I certainly wouldn’t be caught at The Big House. After all, I am a Michigan State fan. But let me be honest here. I have no legitimate reason … Continue reading Rivalry No More →

What Happened to the Imagination?

To the child who reads by flashlight, Who sees dragons in the clouds, Who feels most alive in worlds that never were, Who knows magic is real, Who dreams, This is for you. What happened to letting children use their imagination? Heck, what happened to letting people in general use their imaginations? I was watching … Continue reading What Happened to the Imagination? →

Anxiety is…

Having anxiety and depression is like being scared and tired at the same time. It’s the fear of failure, but no urge to be productive. It’s wanting friends, but not wanting to socialize. It’s wanting to be alone, but not wanting to be lonely. It’s caring about everything, then caring about nothing. It’s feeling everything … Continue reading Anxiety is… →

Focusing on the Now.

I've been to three mental hospitals in my life. Two when I was a teenager and one as an adult. Each one was different than the others; but the reasonings behind why I was there were all kind of similar. I was beginning my teen years when my struggle with an unstable mental health started. … Continue reading Focusing on the Now. →