Unbearable Silence

Lack of communication ruins everything because instead of knowing how the other person feels, we just assume. So I’ve been told recently that I’m a horrible communicator.  I keep things bottled in. I don’t share my feelings and can’t hold a conversation well.  It was hard to hear this, to be completely honest... but it’s … Continue reading Unbearable Silence

Anxiety is…

Having anxiety and depression is like being scared and tired at the same time. It’s the fear of failure, but no urge to be productive. It’s wanting friends, but not wanting to socialize. It’s wanting to be alone, but not wanting to be lonely. It’s caring about everything, then caring about nothing. It’s feeling everything … Continue reading Anxiety is…

Focusing on the Now.

I've been to three mental hospitals in my life. Two when I was a teenager and one as an adult. Each one was different than the others; but the reasonings behind why I was there were all kind of similar. I was beginning my teen years when my struggle with an unstable mental health started. … Continue reading Focusing on the Now.

Mental Illness Doesn’t Take a Holiday Vacation

I read something on Twitter earlier today that said, "Mental illness doesn't take a holiday break."  And this could not be more true.  Holidays always seem to be stressful.  Between entertaining family and friends, cooking big holiday meals, shopping for those gifts that will be used for a few months then tossed to the side … Continue reading Mental Illness Doesn’t Take a Holiday Vacation

Defined by My Reflection

And I said to my body, softly, "I want to be your friend." It took a long breath and replied, "I have been waiting my whole life for this." -Nayyirah Waheed For most of my adolescent and adult life I have looked at myself and only saw the worst things about me.  My stomach is too … Continue reading Defined by My Reflection