“Just be yourself
People don’t have to like you
and you don’t have to care
you can’t change how people feel about you
so don’t even try
just live your life
and be happy”
Hey ya’ll! It’s been a minute since I’ve started this blog and so much has happened since the day I sat in front of my computer to create my first post. Not only have things changed in life, but I’ve changed. So, allow me to reintroduce myself.
My name is Chelsea. I’m a divorced momma to three beautiful daughters and the birth momma to a handsome young man (It’s terrifying saying that. I cannot believe he is almost 14!). I work full time, in school full time, and ride life’s rollercoaster every day.
Over the last few years, I’ve learned some new things about myself:
1. Animals have a huge calming effect on me (so now I must buy them all and have my own little farm).
2. I actually do like video games (some of them anyway).
3. I am incredibly uncomfortable in dead silence, so there is always at least music playing in the background.
4. I have ADHD (this really explains a lot in my opinion).
5. Book smarts came to me later in life (Kudos to me for be a 3-time (so far) Dean’s List recipient!).
6. I’m not nearly as picky of an eater as I once was. Turns out if you actually try the food instead of just assuming you won’t like it, you may just end up liking it. (Thanks Joe)
7. I believe in the healing powers, centering, and calming effects that crystals can bring into my life. I’d also sage the heck out of this house if certain people wouldn’t be so thrown off by the idea.
8. Spending time in nature is KEY for survival.
I finally found my voice. I set boundaries that have needed to be set for years. And the best part is, I’ve stuck by them. I’ve been avid about my counseling sessions and setting goals along the way. I’ve seen some big improvements, but I know I still have a way to go. I took the time to develop a strong circle of people who I trust and can talk to. This has taken a lifetime to do. And felt nearly impossible after Papa passed away. (Thanks Alicia, Emily, Danisha, Lauren and Joe. I don’t tell you or show it enough, but I appreciate all of you very much. You’ve helped me grow along this journey in different ways.) I’m rebuilding the relationship with my parents. That has it challenges, but we will get there.
I believe in self-care. No matter how big or small. Taking time every day to do something just for me, so therapeutic. I take time to listen to the rain and spend more time outside, even if it is just sitting on the back patio doing homework. One of my favorite things to do is to get lost in a book. Makes sense, this was always something I loved doing before my life flipped upside down.
I’m itching to be able to graduate in August 2024. I’ll have my associate degree in Medical Billing and Coding. The opportunities that this is going to open up for me, well, it makes me very hopeful for my future. That’s not something I’ve always been able to say.
I’m still the same smartass and random person I was back then. The sass may have gotten a bit sassier, however my heart, that is just as big as before (it’s just a bit harder to make it in there now a days. Unless you’re a 4 legged fluffy, cozy, sweet animal that is). My dreams are big. But I believe I will attain them all!
Beautifully Chaotic 