The Good of Goodbye

“If you’re brave
enough to say
goodbye, life will
reward you with a
new hello.”

That’s it world. My divorce finalized in November. It’s been a long journey since then and its only May. I’ve learned that happiness doesn’t depend on who is in your life but rather being happy with where you are in your journey; and that being alone is okay.

I started back in counseling a month ago and it’s truly been a blessing. I’ve been able to learn so much more about myself post divorce than I ever thought possible. So far I’ve learned that getting closure is possible on my own. Forgiving is possible even when I didn’t think it was; and that being at peace in my life is more important that I ever knew.

I’ve learned that living on my own requires more work than ever imagined and more financial discipline than I actually possess. I’ve learned that it’s okay to ask for help and that surrounding yourself with the right people is so important. I’ve since moved back home to live with my parents until I am financially and mentally ready to be on my own and can do it successfully.

I’ve made some great friends and amazing connections at my main job. Definitely the right kind of people to be around. I’m catching myself laughing harder then ever and enjoying life again.

I feel like I am almost ready to take on the world solo. I’ve been working two jobs and I’m killing the savings game. I’m adulting better than ever and I am so freaking proud of myself. I know I still have a ways to go before I am mentally ready to be out on my own, but the steps that I’ve made have been huge strides for me.

My biggest goal is to be moved out on my own by December and for once I actually feel like that is possible. If I keep myself on track, no crazy spending, better budgeting and discipline, than I’ve got this down.

With all this positive going on in my life as of lately, I’ve noticed that focusing on the negative isn’t something that I do too often. Although don’t get me wrong, it still happens because after all I’m only human.

So that’s my life right now. I’ve been working so hard on myself and I’m proud of who I am becoming. I’m proud of the strength that I’m finding I possess. And I’m finally proud of the POSITIVE changes I’ve made. Who knew getting divorced would be truly the most positive thing I needed for me. My kids are happier. I’m happier. And that is all that matters to me.